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jealousy [
Sun, ]


I hate jealousy its just a terrible feeling and I'm dealing with it currently. I was hoping you guys can comment and help me with this issue T_T! its tearing me apart inside and it just sucks.

I went to my friends party and on the way to the park we picked up one of his friends that i met once because she used to go to school with them. She was really nice and sweet ! Kindda reminded me of myself.

first let me tell you this:

Well i also like one of my guy friends, but now im trying to forget about him because i feel that he'll just hurt me anyway. he likes to flirt with other girls to make them feel special and that is just not right. It tears me up inside because i actually fall for his "charm" and yet i dont want to love him. He also thinks I'm geeky because i love anime and cosplaying (which i tell him i am because ...i am ^^) but then says it negatively and im thinking but your just like me but worse (he's a kinky guy), he probibly thinks im dumb too because for some reason its like the things i do and dont mean to do or say just come out wrong u know? i normally dont act like that around my other friends !! so two things are agains me im a geek and dumb. I feel frustrated too because i know thats not me and not what im all about. He's like really confusing too because he says that he wants other girlfriends later on(flings he says) but he wants his actual wife (if u will) to like anime, cosplay, smart, blah blah. He told me once if i knew anyone thats cute and likes to cosplay and i said no because im the only one . so why would he say that because he knows i dont have other cosplaying friends that he'd be interested in . i know his taste too. he's picky. And i sometimes think "am i your perfect special someone"? so its just very stupid and i dont know what to do anymore.

Ok! so back to what im talking about with jealousy:

so the girl that we picked up! we dont really hang out with her cause she's more of a foreign friend. like she's not in our inner circle and we only seen her twice ! haha! ok so we were hanging out but i notice that the guy i like but dont want to like is always with her. I felt jealous then. I hated it. not them but just the fact i was jealous and feeling very terrible and broken inside. He'd occationally come over to me and poke me to make me squirm and give me attention but still i felt so jealous of the other girl. When i met her for the first time he was paying more attention to me and not her. How do i get over him? How do i stop feeling jealous and having this aching feeling inside? I think i'm just a jealous person. I had no idea. I never felt this way before. I feel like crap T_T !
[LEt's Have a Romantic Love!]

RANDOM SHIZZLES!!~ [
Wed, ]
I got these from alysonsfriend so why not haha!!~

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OOverwhelming
NNaive

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Ok so im going to have a little boy come join our team. sorry Lysander T_T ! maybe next time!

Lysander:ZzzZZzz!
me:....ANYWAYS!!~

I think im going to call this YOSD Puff boy Pokie! remember those books with that dog thing and ....ok ya off topic! so yes Pokie! i like that name hahaha! sounds silly and cute ^_^! So he'll have Psychic powers type of thing and when he touches people and asks questions even if the person doesnt answer right he'll sill gain information and travel through the persons mind. He can also make things float haha! Sooo...ya thats about it so far!

THIS IS FOR ALYSON!!~


[3 Sakura Kisses] [LEt's Have a Romantic Love!]

torture!! [
Tue, ]
VOLKS HURRY UP AND TELL US WHAT DOLLS WILL BE UP FOR DOLPHA!!!!!!!!

gah! i wish they'd hurry up T_T ! my future doll plans rest on this!
If they have a doll that i want i'll for sure try and get it. But that means no FCS for me T_T. and put off my poor school head A.

But if i dont want any of the dolpha dolls then i'll get my school head A!! woot woot!!~ and maybe my parents can get me a body for him XD !
[1 Sakura Kisses] [LEt's Have a Romantic Love!]

thinking about Narin now??? [
Mon, ]
DUDE!!!!!!!!! how many more members will be added to my family X_X !!
ok so at first i was thinking a Narae but i looked at the boy and he's just so cute and asian looking!!!1 XD !! If i were to get one i'll get the msd sized one. hmmm i'll maybe make him into a fairy or somthing... i'll do some research later ^_^ ! hehe but so cute! i might give him a korean name or something ^_^ !~
[LEt's Have a Romantic Love!]

Ash is coming together!! [
Mon, ]
muahahaha! yes i love their faceup that they did!! i think i'll order the make up this F-31 has one!  click for bigger image




i also love them eyes he has on too! <3 !!
[1 Sakura Kisses] [LEt's Have a Romantic Love!]

new kind of doll [
Thu, ]
i thought these were really cute! if they arent that expensive i maybe want to get one ^_^ ! problem is i dont know what they are called. i think they are called "27cm Volks Dollfie". thats what it said on the title but it was actually for the clothes that they are wearing.

[LEt's Have a Romantic Love!]

.:.Nightmare.:.[CP ani, volks syo] [
Wed, ]
CLICK HERE TO VIEW THE REST

[LEt's Have a Romantic Love!]

Mystery Man [
Tue, ]
One cold winter day Kisa steped outside for some peace and quiet. Study time was important to her you see, because it was her job to know things that no other human being might know. She senced some one was watching her from a tree and turned to see who it may be. No one but a cold gusty breeze. She could swear she heard a echoing chuckle. Lost in a daze she didn't noticed Duncan and her brother standing near. "Hey, wake up!" Toushiro said cheerfully. "Is there something wrong?" asked Duncan a little worried. Her eyes darted around a saw a figure spying them from a corner of the next house. She got up and ran to him. She could hear flapping wings a felt a great chilling wind but once she reached the corner he was gone. Her brother and little friend ran to her and asked what made her so worried. "I there was someone here" she said confused. A few minutes later it started to snow and there echoed the name "Ashdel..."


Name: Ashdel
age: very old
appearence: white hair grey(or blue *havend decided*) eyes pointed ears
race:dragon
type:ice
personality: kind, peaceful and mysterious but when angered very harsh like a snowstorm. also likes flaunting around in human form *what choice does he have XD*
quote: "you humans are strange indeed"
[1 Sakura Kisses] [LEt's Have a Romantic Love!]

Through the Glass Window [
Fri, ]

**Author's note: yes i was bord and i wanted to do something like this anyway. ^_^ sorry for the bad grammer and all that sort of stuff! thank you!!~**

 

            In a mansion, to the far west side of Ireland’s Seacape, lived a boy not a year older than the age of 11. He was never seen by anyone who lived outside of the bronze gate that separated his family’s estate and town where he wasn’t permitted to ever go. “Bring me back some candy Caitlin?” he’d ask as his eldest sister placed her summer hat her head.

She smiled and faced him and said, “Duncan, You’re lucky you’re not a girl! And all you can think about is sweets!” He grinned wide as she passed him and pet his soft black hair.

She make her way to the stair case and shouted for the other sisters to hurry, “Elizabeth!~ Sarah!~ Tara!~ Daisy!~ Eleanor!~ Papa said that he’s meeting us in town today and I don’t want to be late!!”

            You can hear the thundering footsteps from the second floor as they rushed down the banister and shoving poor Duncan to the other side of the room. Alone set of footsteps step down from the last step of the staircase. She held a book close to her face which was nothing unusual. She steps slowly and quietly to where Duncan stood and stopped there. “Sarah, what are you reading today?” asked Duncan who was very much interested.

            She slowly looked up from her book and set the bookmark in place and closed it. She turned her morose but pretty face to Duncan and said quietly, “Brothers Grimm… would you like me to read to you when we get back?”

            Duncan nodded and said, “We can eat the sweets Caitlin will bring back!” She gave a small smile as she cleaned her glasses with her handkerchief and looked up at him “I’ll be waiting in the library”.

            Then they left as quickly as they came. Duncan waved to all of them from the comfort of the steps to their home and slowly walked back inside into the now empty house. He strolled up the first stair case, then the second which led to his room. He looked at the random claw marks scattered around the room. He moved to his bed and glanced at his stuffed monkey who apparently had an accident and had and arm torn off but barely hanging by a thread or two. “I’m sorry…Did I do this to you?” He bit his lower lip and frowned. He pulled up a chair and sat next to a window looking over the poor creature he had in his hands. “Don’t worry”, he assured it, “Papa gave me this ring. It’s a family heirloom. It’s supposed to help me change when I really want to change. Not when I don’t want to change.” He fiddled with the ring on a chain around his neck and stared into the blood red jewel. “Why was a born like this? Why do I turn into a monster when the moon is full? Why does father seem to hate me and not want to even look at me?” He looked out the window with tears rolling down his face then looked down at his stuffed monkey. “Do you hate me too?” It didn’t answer. Duncan wiped his eyes and set his monkey back on his bed and promised it Sarah will fix him soon. He sat back into his chair and stared into the sea’s horizon. “Is there something more?” he thought. “Is there a greater purpose for me out there?” he was silent and waited patiently till his beloved sisters came back to him.

 

 

To Be Continued.

[2 Sakura Kisses] [LEt's Have a Romantic Love!]

I Hate... (CP Ani) [
Tue, ]



random photos i took during the photoshoot:



[2 Sakura Kisses] [LEt's Have a Romantic Love!]

.:.The Snack That Smiles Back.:. [
Fri, ]

Yay for photostories!!!~
Duncan (CP ani boy)
Toushiro (Sd13 syo)

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Toushiro:  .... *tap tap tap tap~*


Toushiro: HOLD IT!!~ .... I SAID HOLD IT!!! ........ 


Duncan: *watches quietly*


Toushiro: *tap tap tap*




Duncan: *places monkichi on the floor*


*climbs*


Duncan: TOUSHIRO! what are ya doin'


Toushiro: ....*tap tap tap*


Duncan: uh!~


Duncan: What game are you pla-
Toushiro: Stop bothering me! I'm trying to get this guy convicted! This mofo right here! *points* the one with the stupid hair!


Duncan: why does he look like bubble gum O.o ?
Toushiro:  bleh!


Duncan: May I watch?


Toushiro: OBJECTION!! your going to make me lose my consentration! >_< !! LEAVE!
Duncan: what if i sit here and eat these then? T_T


Toushiro: Gold Fishes? ....hm...Ok! just be quiet while i figure this guy out -_- !


Duncan: *munch munch*

Duncan: " Let's hear it now for Goldfish
                 Yes, baked and not fried Goldfish

                 The yummy snack that smiles back
                 Until you bite their heads off
                 Did you know they're made with real cheese
                 Even though they look like fishies?
                 The snack that smiles back, Goldfish!" ~


Toushiro: GAAHHH!! >_<

END

[8 Sakura Kisses] [LEt's Have a Romantic Love!]

I Want MONEHHH!!! [
Wed, ]
Man dont you just hate it when you want something and its right infront of you, but you cant get it because you dont have enough of the greens?

And yes im still thinking of the school head XD !!~ at the most its around $500 and the body would be around..im guessing $500?? with that i could if i wanted to do a FCS!! O.o! but i like the softer look of the sch A.
I saw another one on DOA!! $450~ maybe if i play maid for ...4 or 5 monthes i'll get him??

That i can do but I just got Duncan so i feel bad. *looks left and the little guy is sitting happily* T-T !! ohhh i love you!!! *glomps duncan* O.O
duncan = clueless .

I all of my resin roommates! the two boys sleep in my bed with me and kisa sits on her sofa. but ya i dont neglect any of them. I dont think it would change even if a adding one more to the family right? right??

Oh yes alyson!! we need to ninja in the night and try and find my school head!! or money will work well too!~ hahaha! oh and can u teach me how to do those preview pictures for LJ?? i still dont know how that works ^^;;.
[3 Sakura Kisses] [LEt's Have a Romantic Love!]

Duncan's Arival!~ [
Sun, ]
ya i opened him a day early ^_^ ! I love my little werewolf!!! haha he's so cute!! i wish they could have colored the lips a little more differently. But ya as expected luts=strung tightly.~ anyway here are pictures!!~
ten_ten: YESS!! IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS FOR A MONTH!!~

Rip!!~

ten_ten: getting closer!!~~

ten_ten: oh man i look so terrible in this picture >.< !~

ten_ten: aww look how cute he is!~ common Duncan make your grand entrance! *ah very bad picture*
Duncan:em...hello ^_^ !~

ten_ten: here how bout another one!~

ten_ten: outfit change!! pj time!~ *hovers over Duncan* ^_^
Duncan: X_X

Duncan: Merry Christmas everyone!!~ (my favorite picture out of the bunch!!)
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
ME Met His Comrades


Duncan: HI ^0^ !
Toushiro: *glares coldly and thinks competition*
Kisa: Nice to meet you! ^_^
yes and im very aware that she's wearing a summer kimono -_-;
THE END!~~
[3 Sakura Kisses] [LEt's Have a Romantic Love!]

GOOFY MOVIE!! [
Thu, ]
REMEMBER THIS KIDDIES?!?! ^0^ !

[1 Sakura Kisses] [LEt's Have a Romantic Love!]

why am i so fickle? T_T [
Tue, ]
ok so i love bjds~! thing is i always fall in and out of love with the one i want "next". i really liked hodoo but now im thinking about getting another Sd13 boy to be kisa's cuddle bunny ^_^ !

I was also looking at Bermann (i dont know anything about them) also because there's no doubt that he wont fit in (shiro has a big head *cough cough*) and he's also tall.He is a little too mature for me though but i love to look at him ^_^ !

i was also looking at the F-16 head...hmm i donno.

I also like tony!! always have haha!! but he's pretty much gone and very hard to get XD !

i guess i can try saving up for a FCS and if there is a limited doll that i absolutely love then i'll buy that one???

I'm still sticking to my original vampire idea haha ^_^ ! I really want a purple eyed doll so i'll go with that ^_^ ! uhh~ i always want more XD! and there is no way i can get all of them that i want T_T . *sigh* if only if only!~
[2 Sakura Kisses] [LEt's Have a Romantic Love!]

crossplay~! [
Sun, ]
http://denofangels.com/forums/showthread.php?t=103610

OH YES I DID!!
[LEt's Have a Romantic Love!]

Doll mania!! [
Thu, ]
oh man!! my moms yelling at me cause i really want this little guy now!!~ ahhh~~~!! http://doll.luts.co.kr/item-img/KDF_061208-7.jpg

i want him so bad!~ i must wait though!! T_T ! oh!! bday money!! yeahhH!!!*evil smile* i swear my last one!!! i love this guy though!~ so cute! i donno what im going to name him but i decided he's going to be my vampire boy~! he has that face ya?? i also decided that he's on the lazy side and you will see him sleeping alot hahaha! very tired like mellow voice~ ^_^ !
blonde hair and blue eyed~ i like him that way! im trying to get different hair and eye colors for each of my dolls haha! have you noticed ^_^?

i also wanted a girl msd too but ya before my mother will throw something at me i decided to wait until i get a REAL job~ i was thinking maybe somi from luts http://doll.luts.co.kr/item-img/KDF_060802-4.jpg
she has a cute child face~ ah i donno but first up im going to get my vamp boy!! THATS A PROMISE !!! XD I DONT CARE WHAT MY MOTHER SAYS WAHAHHAHA!!
[2 Sakura Kisses] [LEt's Have a Romantic Love!]

Dolpha 16 stuff!! [
Tue, ]
http://www.volks.co.jp/jp/event/dolpa16/vsbooth.html
http://www.superdollfie.net/sd/shinsaku/index.html


oh man i love williams the best!! he looks like a hound/volks mix! hahaha! oh and kurumi is the sister of huey and tony!!! hahaha so cute!!! i love her too! such a cute face!
[2 Sakura Kisses] [LEt's Have a Romantic Love!]

kisa is back!! [
Sat, ]
omg im so happy!! she turned out so good! i love it ^_^ !

http://denofangels.com/forums/showthread.php?t=102163
[2 Sakura Kisses] [LEt's Have a Romantic Love!]

He's here~! [
Thu, ]
Duncan is here!! man but the box was really banged up XD! o well he got here in one piece. wow his box was small compaired to toushiro and kisa's!

But alass! i cant see him till christmas T_T ! my sister and mom opened him though to see if he's ok and if i got all my stuff.

Sister: He looks weird XD !!
Me: GAHHHHH NOOOOO!! O.O
Mom: no he doesnt he looks cute! his makeup is just fancy. i think the big one is going to be jealous of the little one.
Me: XD ! I WANT TO OPEN HIMM!!!!!!!!

I know if i do id be a little bumbed cause i opened my one and only christmas present ^^;; ! so if i wait and open him christmas day then i'll be supper happy!!
man but i cant wait T_T !

oh yes and i must say...SUDOKU IS SO FREAKING ADDICTING!!!!!! X3 !
ok...im done now hahaha!
[3 Sakura Kisses] [LEt's Have a Romantic Love!]

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